A reflection on a reflection

Assalamwa’alaikum sisters

In sha Allah you’re all in the best of health and iman and are doing fantastic.

Oh and Ramadhan Mubarak! In sha Allah you’re taking full advantage of this blessed month.

Oh and in sha Allah don’t worry as my story will continue so I haven’t forgotten or stopped.

So a rather peculiar title to this post: a reflection on a reflection. Well I’ll clarify…oh and final note, my tone is going to be slightly conversational so just a heads up there.

Now I think…a lot. I spend much of my time just thinking; about the past, future, me, my mistakes etc as I’m sure we all do. But there’s a problem with thinking too much. There’s a problem with living inside your head and forcing yourself to go over your past again and again. Now before you jump to the conclusion that I’m advocating the stopping of thinking, I’m not. However what I am trying to get across is this: learn from the past, ponder upon your mistakes to learn how to move on and be a better Muslim but do not allow the past to define you.

It’s an integral part of being Muslim: realising your mistakes and turning back to Allah SWT in sincere repentance. But you do not have to live in the past and in the shadow of your mistakes. Let it go and move on. Cliche right? But so true…

I want to share a story, short one don’t worry. One day on the way to school, it began to rain. A little at first but it soon intensified and as I walked through that rain, a thought came to me…these raindrops were purifying the ground or cleaning it. The rubbish was flowing away and left the ground bare. What does wudhu do? It is a form of purification for as you wash, your minor sins wash away too: http://abdurrahman.org/seerah/riyad/08/chap185.htm

You’re being cleansed.

You’re starting again.

And that is so powerful and amazing subhanAllah! Five times a day you are washing away those minor sins in sha Allah.

But there’s more to come…

We are in the month of Mercy, the month in which the gates of Hell are closed and the gates of Jannah are open so this is the time to repent and turn back. To purify and cleanse and then move on. To let the past go. To be free.

Wasalamwa’alaikum wa Rahmatullahi wa Barakatuhu



Mercy of Allah SWT

Assalamwa’alaikum sisters! 😀

SubhanAllah been really busy with my exams and work and so haven’t been able to blog much so apologies, please forgive x

In sha Allah today I wanted to speak about the mercy of Allah SWT

The reason as to why I wanted to post regarding this particular topic is because this is something that I, as well as others, feel like I am constantly despairing about. And subhanALLAH we feel trapped after we sin and suffocated by the enormity of our bad deed or by it’s severity. But ALLAHU AKBAR His mercy far supersedes His wrath.

No sin is greater than His mercy so we should always turn back. The Shaitaan will try his utmost to convince us that we are too bad and that we will never be forgiven but ignore his whispers. As long as we are sincere then in sha Allah Allah SWT will forgive us.

SubhanALLAH never despair over His mercy, always have hope in sha Allah for truly a life without hope is death. This is something that I personally have battled with for a long time and will continue to do so until I finally realise how great Allah SWT’s mercy is.


The past is something that we can never ever change but alhamdulilah without it we would never be where we are today. Perhaps it was that through one sin in the past that Allah SWT allowed us to come closer to Him when otherwise we would have stayed blind and ignorant of the truth.

Seek His mercy after sin and in sha Allah He will forgive you and then move on. Don’t let the past haunt you, leave it where it’s meant to be but carry the lessons you learn from it in your heart always so you may always remember where you came from and how much you’ve moved on by His Mercy. And to also remind yourself how much you don’t want to slip back into that place where your nightmares reside.

This is not something new I am saying for we have always known this or been taught this but I guess this is a little reminder for all of us who feel the walls closing in after we sin. Who feel that their heart will never be cleansed of these bad deeds and that there is no hope. For as long as we keep faith in Allah SWT there is always hope.

SubhanALLAH before we begin something, anything what do we recite? ‘Bismillah hirrahma nirahim’ which translates as ‘In the name of Allah SWT the Most Beneficent and the Most Merciful’ so how can we despair? Wee say this dua, this supplication so many times a day but do we ever reflect upon it? We are constantly saying that Allah SWT is the most merciful but when the calamity hits us, when we commit that bad deed, how many of us run to Him full of regret and more importantly hope begging for His mercy? SubhanALLAH we don’t many a time for we give up before the fight has even properly started.

In sha ALLAH could go on for a long time talking about His mercy but I think that much is sufficient for one post. In sha Allah would love to next time maybe share my personal inspirations and how I try to overcome this barrier that stops me from running back to Him after I sin. I don’t really enjoy speaking about my personal life but in sha Allah khayr if it helps or inspires someone else then I will try to share.

I write this post first and foremost to remind myself and then to remind others in sha ALLAH as this is something that is very much an ongoing struggle for me so keep me in your duas in sha Allah…

Jazakumullah Khairan ukties x